masayume15

Job hunt still continues, people just aren't hiring and nobodys asking me to do anything for them, especially photo jobs but I at least have one thing that might be going for me so I really hope it goes through. But I'm still trying to do my best at everything, and there really are some things that make you happy even though you don't want to crack a smile, it's how I feel right now. So I'll leave this now with this song and hopefully I'll have new photos to put up soon, I've got ideas I'm playing around with. Bai now








 

Well, I'm still having issues trying to find a job and Im not too happy bout that. It's been making me really upset and doubt myself and make me feel like nothing. There's so
much I miss, being happy, those who were close to me and just living. But nothing is set in stone...I don't know where I'll be a week from now or a year all I know is I have to keep pushing my boundaries and trying to better myself. Change doesn't necessarily happen because you hope it will happen, you have to try to make it happen. So I'll keep looking for work and wanting better things to happen. But change to make better, you guys know it. I'm still here. Bai

I really need a break from the world. I can't seem to get a job, I'm not at school, I have a janky camera and don't have any money to pay for a new one and I'm getting no work done because nobody wants their pics taken or whatever. But i've complained about all this before so, old news. New news: headache -_- but anyway, I found some old pics I took about last year so I may put some of them up. It's really hard to focus on finding 'me' cuz I need to gain some EXP before she's found like the whole job thing etc. I just need to keep on trying and even though it's in our nature to take the path of least resistance, we need to go the path with most resistance because eventually there will be no more struggle, like a rubber band...so I'll keep on trying
bye y'all

"I Want To Hold Your Hand"

Oh yeah, I'll tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I'll say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

Oh please, say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
I'll let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

And when I touch you I feel happy
Inside
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide
I can't hide
I can't hide

Yeah, you've got that something
I think you'll understand
When I'll say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

And when I touch you I feel happy
Inside
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide
I can't hide
I can't hide

Yeah, you've got that something
I think you'll understand
When I'll feel that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

umm...yup. Job hunt continues, so far: incredibly unsuccessful
sad puppy rating: 7
ability to hold it together: 8 out of 10
I'll put up new pics when I can and that's about it

I might be getting a job soon. I really hope it works out for me, it'll give
me the will to get out of bed. Then I can get paid and start being an adult. That's really all for right now, job status will be updated when something happens. Ummm...miss
you...hope you do too. This entry is short for now cuz not really much to say but I'm sure I will later. Bai for now *EDIT* ummm...I am seriously worried for you...like out of my head worried and I have no idea if I should be...i have no clue how you are and it's driving me nuts...I just care a lot and I'm getting all wound up about it...but I am, and I'm going stir crazy and still have no job and I'm just a tiny little mess right now and I just need to be put at ease...please?